I just watched the JUNOS and its left me with an aching in my gut. I have a sickly gnawing tearing feeling that my vision of the music industry is drastically wrong. I can’t believe how vapid and empty the awards seemed to me. The only moment that felt of any sincerity to me was when KD Lang sang Halleluiah. Now I’m bitching I guess but I always hoped that one day I might get nominated for a JUNO, and now I don’t believe that can ever happen. I’m in a format that didn’t get shown on the show and the winner of the award didn’t even get to perform. Do I sound downhearted and dejected? I guess I feel that way. I see the transition of a world I once knew to whole new generation of young people who have different interests than the ones that drew me to this point in my career.

Don’t misunderstand me, I LOVE the music I’m making and there are lots of great things happening for me. It’s just that after that show I can’t help but wonder what it’s all for? I read an article recently about the industry and how a top selling blues album will sell only 5000 copies in Canada. In one breath that gives me hope that I’m not that far away from that figure (I sell about a 1000 when I am touring) and in the next breath I see that that ain’t a lot of records.

Have the industry always been this shallow? (don’t bother answering that it was rhetorical)